I wasn't cheated..... I was blessed

Sometimes I forget of the blessing that I received.  I am so consumed with grief and longing, that I get caught in self pity.  I get wrapped up and what I don't have instead of remembering what I do have.  I don't want to live my life wishing I had more.  I constantly ask God for forgiveness because I feel like I am being ungrateful for what he gave me.  I prayed for him to send me an angel and he did.  I prayed for him to give me more time with her and he did.  How could I forget the treasure that he gave me?  I don't like the person that I am sometimes. This road has been so rough that it side swipes me into darkness.  I am very grateful for my angel.  I was extremely happy during my time with her.  I was able to see her grow, move, tease the nurse and doctors and feel her kicks.  I was able to make a connection with her and I know she felt me.  I was able to see her captivate my family and then sleep like the angel that she is.  What more could I ask for?  I was not cheated out of life, I was blessed.  Remembering this is easier said then done.  I will have to keep reading this over and over as I get through my grief.  But I will make this effort because Evangeline is worth it.