My Evangeline,
This past Sunday marks a year since I found out I was pregnant with you. I remember thinking that it was a possibility since my period was acting weird. I was scared of taking the test because I didn't want to be let down if it was negative. When the two lines appeared I couldn't believe it so I took another one. Sure enough that one came back positive too. I've heard parents describe a since of fear when the find out. Not me, I felt a rush of strength and I thought to myself "Ok, I am ready". From that moment you became my priority. I was ready and determined to take care of you. My prayer was answered and our journey had begun.
A week later we went to Cancun and you came along with me. I was fully aware of you and began to picture my life with you. I was happy to be on the beach with my little baby growing inside me. I walked on the beach, swam in the ocean and ate good food with you on my mind. I decided to use the beach and the ocean as a back drop for my announcement to your grandparents. I took a picture of the word "Bebe" written on the beach and showed them. Needless to say they loved it. The wait to meet you began for them and for your uncles and aunty. Excitement and anticipation filled everyone's heart. You were loved right off the bat my angel. I'll never forget those beautiful moments and feelings.
I look back at that time with sadness but also joy. It's easy to get preoccupied with the grief and forget the joy. That was one of the best moments of my life. I am blessed to have experienced that and to be your mom. I can't forget the love that you gave me and I won't.
I love you my baby,
Your mama
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