Everything is changing

I am in the process of moving my things into storage and looking for a new place to live. Although the hope of a fresh start is exciting, I am also scared. My life as I knew it is over. The house that I lived in for over 5 years is no longer home. The life that I thought was going to happen is not happening. I am trying to hold it together so that I don't break down. The best that I can do is try to not think of what is happening. But sometimes the thoughts take over and I nearly break down. Saying goodbye to a future I thought was certain is so hard. But then I remember that the absolute worst has already happened. I lost my baby girl and it can't get any worse than that. I wish that I could share my life with her. I know that she is with me still. Somehow I am still receiving her strength from the other side.