PPROM

My Evangeline

I received our medical reports.  It mentioned that when I bled at 11 weeks it indicated a risk of loss due to PPROM, rupture of membranes.  I feel extremely guilty because I was working out when I bled.  Although the OB said that I could work out and that what happened had nothing to do with it, I can't help but feel guilty.  The last thing I ever want to do is hurt you.  It tears me up thinking that I did.  If I could do anything to change what happened I would.  I just wanted to protect you and it hurts me to think that I may have hurt you.  I am so sorry.  Only God knows the truth.  I hope that you know how much I love you and how sorry I am.  Regardless, something went wrong in my body and I can't help but feel responsible.  Forgive me my baby.  I pray that you can feel the love that I am sending you in heaven.

I miss you so much and I love you more than I can say.

Until we meet again my angel,
Your mama