My Evangeline,
The sixth of the month is a sad reminder for me. It marks yet another month since we said goodbye. Three months have gone by and it feels like a life time. Time does fly but the time away from you drags on. It has been too long my angel. I relive that day over and over again, remembering holding you and watching you. I wish that I could go back to those hours and just stay there with you. Freeze time so that we would not have to say goodbye. I hope that it is not goodbye and that it's actually 'see you later'. I pray that God grants me that wish, that deep longing to see you again. As time goes on I am healing a bit more. I am realizing that I should celebrate your life and your rebirth into Heaven. I know that you are there and being very well taken care of. It hurts me because I wish that I would have had the opportunity to take care of your more. But I am trying not to be selfish and be grateful that my baby has the best care that anyone can receive. My pain and sacrifice is not in vain.
Until we meet again my Ailey,
Your mama <3
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