What I wouldn't give

My Evangeline

Normally thinking that your alive and well in heaven is enough to keep my going.  I picture you healthy, happy and vibrant.  Full of life,  just how you were in my belly.  Today this is not enough.  Nothing is helping me.  It's just not right that I don't have you.  It's not right that I won't see your cute little face.  It's not right that I won't be able to hold you.  It's not right that I won't be able to give you kisses.  What I wouldn't give to have all of that again.    You filled me up with your joy and enthusiasm.  I knew you had the sweetest personality.  You would get all excited when I would rub my belly after you kicked.  I still get phantom kicks.  Even my body misses you.  I miss you.  If I could only hold you again.  I will keep praying for that day.

Until we meet again my angel
Love,
Your mama