God deserves the praise

My Evangeline,

I had a reunion with my fellow grieving parents yesterday.   I hadn't seen the group in a while and I didn't realize how much I missed them.  Every single person said that I looked great.  Kim,  one of the facilitators, told me that I was her hero.  I told her that it's not my strength it's the Lords.  I wouldn't be standing if it weren't for him.  Losing you would have been the end of me if it wasn't for my faith.  Kim also has faith and knows what I am talking about.  She mentioned that there are women how are 10 plus years out and still have not recovered.  I can see that being the case without having the Lord.  I praise him because he never left my side and sent you to rescue me.  Then he helped me get up and keep going, and he still does.  There are days when I crash and my emotions spin out of control.  But the next day I get back up again and keep going and it's all because of him.  It weird, I know that he has always been with me but I couldn't feel it.  Now I do.  I feel his love and his watchful eye guiding me.  I know that you know who he is and are with him.  I hope that you are proud that I am starting to know who he is as well.

I love you my baby,
Your mama