My Evangeline,
The final step of our journey together is complete. Your stone was placed with you this past weekend. I wasn't sure how I would feel when I saw it done. A rush of emotions came over me. I felt sadness knowing that this was the final phase to our journey together. But I also felt joy knowing that you had your stone with you. I know that you are in the Lords hands and that is what the stone is reflecting. It makes me happy that it is yours.
I think about all of the trials and heart aches that I've had to face in my life. All of those experiences really took a toll on my self-confidence and outlook on what I am worth. But our Father knew my worth and never let me go even when I turned away from him. Having gone through the most tragic experience of them all, losing you, presented an opportunity for me to remake myself. I no longer see myself as a door mat that people use. I look back at those experiences with strength and courage knowing that with God I can get through the most terrible times. I have seen the face of evil, been through the darkest moments and had the most terrifying reality. But God not once left my side and pulled me up to keep going. I don't think I realize the strength that I have or really appreciate it. I am more confident than I have been and although I waiver here and there I will keep growing. You can decide to keep letting bad experiences beat you down or you can decide to face them and learn from them. I choose the latter and it all started with you my angel.
Of course it will never be goodbye for us. I know I will be with you again.
Love,
your mama
