My story

Thank you for reading my story. I lost my baby girl at 23 weeks gestation due to chorioamnionitis (infection in the womb). After testing and specialized reviews, it was determined that I had PPROM (preterm premature rupture of the membranes). This was  unnoticed by my OB.  Regardless of my daily inquiries to my OB she insisted that what I was experiencing was normal.  What was considered normal turned the infection that set in pretty strongly and ultimately took my baby. During my pregnancy I separated from my husband.  I made that decision knowing that it was for the safety of Evangeline and me. 

Evangeline is a blessing because she gave me the courage to let go of what I cannot control. Losing her is the worst pain I've ever felt. Words truly cannot describe this pain.  It runs deep and is consuming.  I felt like I lost my purpose.  The night that I lost her I surrendered myself to God because I knew there was no way I could get through this without him. I created this blog as a source for healing for me and a way to keep Evangeline's memory alive. What I discovered is that it has brought me closer to God then I realized.  When people go through bad times it is easy to blame God and ask why me?  When things go wrong it seems like the norm to blame him.  But what some don't realize is that it's not his fault at all.  Things happen in life and they aren't always going to be good.  But he is there to pick you up and keep you going if you let him.  We were made to rely on him and that is what I did when I realized I could not rely on anyone else.

I hope that during this process I may be able to help someone else that is going through loss.


We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5